I am probably the most impatient person you will ever know. No, seriously, I am. It's a trait that I've been working on my whole life and N has it, too, unfortunately. I like instant gratification (except for online shopping) and once I have my mind set to do something, I do it.
This season of waiting has been very difficult for me.
As if our unknown future wasn't enough, I've also dealt with some health issues that have been kinda scary. Well, not kinda - actually had the potential to be very scary. Having bloodwork done to test for cancer cells is no laughing matter but thankfully, I'm just fine - praise God!
Almost daily, I text my hubs things like:
... and ...
So, I looked up Philippians 4:1-9 and the excerpt that speaks to my heart right now is this:
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (verses 4-7)
Speaking of peace, that's not a trait I possess either. At any given moment, even while dreaming, I have at least 538 things running through my mind and a mental to do list much like Sarah Jessica Parker's in the movie I Don't Know How She Does It. As you can imagine, the waiting causes me to think of 271 more things - analyzing and analyzing some more.
I'm slowly driving myself a little bit crazy.
So, today, I'm going to focus on the whole "do not be anxious about anything" part while hanging out with my girl, doing laundry, doing some art, and doing a little bit of online shopping. *wink*
10 comments:
What a great hubby you have! Praying for you during this season of unknown. Praying for patience for for the Lord to whisk away your anxiety!
You will get through this. Unfortunately I have to quote Kelly Clarkson here and tell you... What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. God knows what is best for you guys. The waiting game is the worst.
Wow, we are so similar - seriously. I am the exact same way. It is so hard for me to just stop. Yesterday - for the first time in a long time - I had some "me" time. I ran a bubble bath - lit a candle and just soaked in the tub. It was only for about 20 minutes - but it was just enough time for me to relax and clear my head. I am definitely going to start doing this more often (every chance I get!). I also have an anxiety disorder that I'm on medication for - it's terrible. So when I say I understand - I really mean it! :)
You see "do not be anxious for anything" but the "with Thanksgiving" sticks out most to me. I have to be very intentional with gratitude sometimes, but this passage guarantees that the Peace follows on thanksgiving's tail! I am so glad your blood work turned out okay.
I love you girlie. I know I have to focus on this verse a lot too. And constantly remind myself I am a work in progress
Great response hubby! I wish mine could recall good scripture references on command... ;)
Definitely been praying for you! Hang in there! Waiting can be so hard - I know you and I are waiting on different things, but it's definitely tough - especially with the unknown which I know well with this home buying process and baby around the corner. Hugging you across the web-o-sphere.
I always have 538 things going through my head too. I'm very Type A that way. Hang in there, girl. And hug that hubby - you've got a keeper!
Such a jerk that Anxiety is! It's wonderful you have such a supportive hubby to get you through it. Just know you're not alone. Sometimes I feel like life is basically a bunch of anxieties and peace is how you get through it. Whatever your peace is... focus on that! :)
<3 you
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