I'm writing this Tuesday night but by the time I'm done making sense of this post, it will probably be early Wednesday morning. This post is just going to be words. No cute pictures of N looking at pumpkins or swinging at the park, no breathtaking shots of an amazing sunset, no Pinterest pins of things on my wish list.
Just words.
Life has me flabbergasted. Totally and utterly discombobulated. We're leaving in a few short hours to start our journey back home from Chicago and I'm not afraid to admit that going home is going to be strange. I feel like God is moving, doing some pretty big things with our hope and our future, and while they are still uncertain, too uncertain to talk about yet, I feel changed.
I had the blessing of going to Willow Creek for service last week and the worship was the kind that you feel in your soul. God was there and He was moving. I haven't had a worship experience like that in what feels like a decade - tears flowing, hands up in the air, head bowed in complete surrender. God is changing me.
We have been so focused on our finances lately - selling things on Craigslist, eBay, and at our yard sale, wondering why simple things have to cost so much, selling a car to get rid of a car payment (yep, we did that), and adjusting our budget to live more simply. Guess what the message was about? Yep, money. How it's not our own, it's simply a tool that God has given us while we're here on Earth. Hello, conviction.
Going home is going to be weird. I have such hope for a big move for us, for big changes in our life this month, and I am waiting and barely breathing with anticipation to see what doors He opens and which path we're meant to journey on.
I have a lot more words. Whispers of my heart, stirrings in my soul, but it's all too much to process right now so I'll leave you with this, my memory verse of the week:
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
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I appreciate your raw, honest, beautiful words. I feel similar, finding out tomorrow about something that could change the course of our life for the next 2 years. I'm clinging to this, "You are God. I am man. You are sovereign." Praying that through it all our love for God would grow.
Wow, I can't wait to see what unfolds!
Praying for you. Can't wait to see what's in store :) <3
Sometimes, change happens slooooowly. Maybe its because you need the adjustment period...sometimes maybe things just aren't quite right yet. Its not ready. But it is a blessing...because sudden change sometimes is rough.
Wishing all the best.
Tricia, just... Tricia. I am moved... I feel the power of the Spirit and what He is doing in you and I am amazed for you. I just know that this transition is going to be so good for you and your family and God has a powerful purpose and anointing on your life. I am so happy for you, and praying for you with joy in my heart! I think I even said to you on Instagram last week that God sometimes asks you to give things up so He can make room for your next steps in your heart, and I had no clue how much it applied for you, too. Seriously. Like, I am dealing with the same thing over here, powerfully. There is so much freedom in recognizing God's ownership over *everything*. Nothing is *mine*, nothing is *yours*! Amazing.
p.s.... for my birthday the other day, I blogged a list of goals for this year. One was to memorize one Bible verse a week. I am so stealing this verse from you! ;)
Praying for you in this exciting, scary, transitional time. I know God has HUGE plans for you guys!
You know I'm sending lots and lots and LOTS of positive thoughts your way! Have a safe trip home :)
On one level I do understand... in fact this very verse has come to be my safe haven. thank you for sharing... and know that you have a family in Christ who is lifting you up! isn't it great how God speaks to our hearts? and uses others to speak to us just when we need it? Trust me its been one of those years for me.... Looking forward to hearing how God in working in your lives and what changes He has in plan!
Beautiful post. I love that verse from Matthew. It's exactly what I needed to read today.
Thank you so much for sharing that verse. You have no idea how much I needed to hear it. xo.
Beautifully put, my friend. I've been praying for your little family and hoping that everything unfolds the way it is meant to (and the way you want it to!). Safe travels back home and may you find something to calm your nerves a bit. :)
Thank you for sharing your verse this week. It just hit me like a ton of bricks. We too have been super stressed over money and huge changes in our life. We too are weary and in need of solace, me in particular. Thank you for putting yourself out there and letting me know we are not alone! <3
Oh my friend. I love you so much and I'm praying for you. :)
I think everybody can relate to this. Love the honesty you show! God has plans for all of us some just take longer than others.
Praying for you and your family, Tricia! It is always amazing when we get to look back over the path we've walked and see how God has moved in our lives. I hope you can look back at this time in a few months and see what a great testimony God has given you!
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