So, obviously, things have been stressful lately and now you know why. It's been an emotional few months (years, actually) and I have turned into a heaping pile of mush and tears. No joke. I cry probably at least once a day from something. Am I alone in this? Please say no or just lie to me. *wink*
Maybe it's because of a really touching scene in every single stinkin' episode of Parenthood or because I'm sorting through N's baby clothes to pack. A lot of the time, it's during N's naps or really late at night, in the quiet, when my brain starts working overtime and I think about how hard it's been to make tough decisions. How hard it's going to be, being separated from the hubs for several weeks. How hard simply being an adult is.
One day last week, N and I were having a turbulent morning. It was one of those days where I was still in my pajamas, glasses, and greasy bed hair at noon and she was refusing to put clothes on so we could leave the house. I was tired, emotional, and just wanted to nap. She was, too.
After her third mini meltdown of the day, I started bawling with her. I couldn't help it. She stopped crying, came over, hugged me really tightly, looked me really closely in the face, and asked "are you all better, Mama?" Well, that, of course, made me cry even harder. So, she did the same thing all over again, asking me "are you okay, Mama? are you all better now?" And she kept on until I couldn't help but smile because of the simple grace she was showing me.
This child. She stopped her meltdown to help me deal with my own. Such sweetness. *sigh*
Speaking of sweetness, I'd like to introduce you to Jac of babEblessings. She is a returning sponsor and I'm thrilled to have her back this month! She is a blogger, a shop owner, and an expecting mama (of babE #2!) Read on to find out more about this lovely lady. *smile*
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I've started doing a lot more blog design and I am LOVING it! More details are coming soon, but if you're looking for a new design, let me know! The 15% discount from my shop can apply to design work as well.
What is the meaning behind the name of your blog?
babEblessings came from some creative spelling and the fact that every child is a blessing. You can read more about it here.
What is a recent favorite post that you've written?
http://babeblessings.com/2012/10/a-new-date-to-add-to-the-calendar/
this is my first post after my dad's lung transplant. just amazing to know that somone would be so selfless in their greif to honour their loved ones wishes and give my dad a chance at life.
What is one thing that few people know about you?
Hmm, this is kinda of hard. My husband has turned me into a super frugal person. I honestly look at something and calculate how long B has to work or how much of a blog design commission it will cost for something. Then I think, is it really worth that much? sually I don't end up buying most of what I pick up. I spend a lot of time walking around the mall to come home with just groceries.
What are your favorite things about October?
October is Thanksgiving here in Canada and I love love LOVE my mom's homemade pumpkin pie. I have the recipe but it is so much better when she makes it. Maybe it's the homemade pastry (I cheat and use frozen). I also love going for walks around our neighbourhood and looking at the leaves change colours. I don't love cleaning them off the deck, but I love seeing how amazing life can look with lots of colour added.
Isn't Jac fabulous? She is currently looking for co-hosts for her 2013 series and would love some help promoting it. Details are here! Email her if you're interested! *smile*
3 comments:
What a hard transition you are all going through in life right now. But don't worry, Mama.. You've GOT this. You are strong. And HE is stronger. Sweet, little N is such a wonderful blessing to you always, but especially now. You're raising a beautiful girl. :)
The other night I cried myself to sleep. It was just needed. Everyday I am happy and sad. It just is that way. I have come to accept it. I do have joy in Christ daily as well. But that is different.
Sometimes I cry at a sad commercial. I know I am just emotional. It gets worse certain times of the month as well.
I'm wiped too. Actually diagnosed with "exhaustion" and dealing with the physical affects of that - low kidney function, low platelet count, etc. etc. So I understand about just not being able to handle it all.
And I understand too how our children come to our aid. Baby Girl also recently came up to me while I was crying and made sure I was "okay." They are our saving grace!
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