Friday, June 29, 2012

real life.

Today, I want to talk about real life.
It's complicated, messy, and chaotic.
It doesn't always fit into a pretty little blog post.
It can feel overwhelming.
It can truly be overwhelming.

We all have ...


We all deal with ...


Life is always just a little bit ...


I've mentioned before about my earnest desire to be real.

Here goes.

Sometimes, I'm the mama who raises her voice.
Sometimes, I stare at the crumbs covering my floor and do nothing about it.
Sometimes, I don't shower and I check the mail in my pajamas.
Sometimes, I cry because being a mama is hard.
Sometimes, I cry because being a pastor's wife is hard.
Sometimes, I just cry.
Sometimes, I pick my nose.
Sometimes, I just want to stay in bed all day.

But, I don't.

On the days that are particularly trying,
I muster an ounce of energy,
shower,
put real clothes on,
put cover up on my breakouts,
put a smile on my face,
and leave the house with a toddler in tow.
Just for a change of scenery for a bit.

We get out,
we do something,
anything, really.

Or I tackle the dishes in the sink,
make the unmade bed,
or fold the pile of clean laundry that's been sitting for days.

The past two weeks have been emotional for me.
We've made some big decisions,
I've been hurt by unexpected people,
I've been encouraged & blessed by unexpected people,
and I've had tough moments with my little girl.

The one thing that has remained constant in my real life is this:

He knows my heart.
He knows my sadness.
He knows my joy.
He knows my mess.
He knows it ALL.
And He loves me just the same.

And that rocks.

20 comments:

sandandstarfish said...

He is what gets me through the day as well friend.
I love you.
I love that you keep it real.

P.S. I'm still in my pjs, with dishes in the sink, on the table and the counter, and my bed's a mess. ;)

Rachel said...

Yes He does, friend, and don't you ever forget it. :)

PS, I know it's not quite the same, but my mom had surgery this week and I've been her "nurse." On the day she came home I stayed in my PJs all day, and if I hadn't had to go to the post office the next day I would have stayed in PJs another day.

Nicole Stauffer said...

I know this all to well. Fits my life perfectly right now.. Thanks for being real!

Chrissy said...

Aw, sweetie, we all have those days. I have them more often than I want to. I love your honesty and the being real part, I truly do!
Can't wait for your big decision! Hope all works out the way you guys want it to! Hang in there, mama, we're all in this together!
Hugs xxx

Pamela said...

Amen Sista! He gets me through each and everyday, without him dont know where I would be. But its ok to have a messy floor, dishes piled up etc because they can be cleaned! have a good day my lovely lady!

Amber M. said...

I love this post so much!!! And I just want to hug you!!
We all have those days! It's all about how you handle it!
I have days that I make myself get up and dressed and I have to convince myself to do just about anything. It's part of being a human. It's real life, just not everyone is as brave and honest as you are.
Thanks for sharing, lady!! <3

Lynne said...

I love this post too - I look at blogs sometimes and think, what is wrong with me? My house isn't clean, I can't always fix nutritiuos meals, and I don't even have little ones to deal with (my two are older, 25 and 22), and it's a good day if I manage to get earrings in when I leave to go to work. I enjoy taking pictures, and have a long list of "things I want to make/do with them". How can everyone else get all this done - AND be a blogger? Most days I just give myself a shake and tell myself that I need to focus on me and how God wants ME to be, not comparing myself to others. So thanks for letting me know that I am not the only one out there struggling to keep all those plates spinning and all the juggling balls in the air.

Taylor said...

Quite possibly your best post ever!!! Love! :) You don't want to see my floor right now, lol

Mindy, from My Life As said...

This is true for anyone, at any level! I am not a Mom, but I have days like this. I love your quote!

Karly Gomez said...

I love this! Way to be real Tricia!

Jacky {The Sweetest Petunia} said...

I have so many messy days, it can be so discouraging...but, it's okay! Love your honesty, dear. :)

Nora Spaulding said...

great inspirational post, any advice on being real and still wanting people to read along? I have a whole slew of posts that I want to do and am planning on taking a day or so out to draft them up.. sound good? Thanks for the realism!

Faith said...

I love love love this post. Life has certainly been a bit hard and chaotic around here lately and I so needed the reminder. Thanks for being real. I am so glad we serve a God who is bigger than everything going on in our lives!

Peggy said...

I do know exactly what you are saying! And isn't it wonderful to know that we have a Lord and Savior who holds us each step of the way!!
I know this is going to sound silly but in all my years (both working and stay at home... so almost 30 years) I've found making my bed 1st thing each day gives me a bit of a boost but nothing like quiet time with my Lord. Am I successful with both? Nope but then try, try again. Right? :)

Mandy said...

<3

Amanda said...

This is my favorite post of yours EVER. :)

Anna @ Beauty in the Chaos said...

Hi Tricia, I'm Anna. I'm a fairly new blogger, and I actually found your blog because someone tweeted your twitter name.

and i am glad that i found you.
just from reading this one post, i can already tell that i am going to love your blog. reading this post, it was almost as if you were writing about ME - minus the picking my nose part. i could never admit to that, lol. but seriously, i was reading it and thinking "this chick is my soul sister. we are identical". And i, too, have had a very trying 2 weeks. i've skipped showers, showered only to put on another pair of pajamas, etc... and you are right, in the midst of all the mess, God is still God, and He is still good.

anyways, i'm your newest follower :)

Anna @ beautyinthechaos.com

Not a Perfect Mom said...

I'm a total nose picker too...
and yes, life is messy and chaotic and sometimes I think the best thing to do is tackle one day at a time

Mandee said...

I love your faith. Can you send some my way? Lately, I feel like the big Man hates me.

Debra Kapellakis said...

Except for the toddler (mine are 20, 17 and 12 years old now). You took the words from my mouth. AMEN!

"He knows my heart.
He knows my sadness.
He knows my joy.
He knows my mess.
He knows it ALL.
And He loves me just the same.

And that rocks."

So perfect!