If you've been a reader of this blog for awhile, you know I've desired to lose a pretty crazy amount of weight for awhile now. Marriage and pregnancy have not been kind to me in the poundage department. I've tried detoxing to jump start my weight loss journey, I've tracked my food online, and I started doing yoga and Zumba.
And I still weigh the same.
To say that I'm frustrated with myself is an understatement. I'm just plain fed up with my lack of self-control when it comes to snacking (mostly at night) and portion control, my inability to manage my time well enough to get to the gym, and how quickly I throw in the towel on any given day after one small bad choice in food. I feel like a broken record, writing posts like this and then falling off the wagon a few weeks later. I know that the sixty pounds I want to lose didn't happen overnight but I seem to think that I should be able to lose at least ten of those in a week. I'm crazy, right?
Well, I joined Weight Watchers two weeks ago. I've done the program twice before, losing 15+ pounds both times but I'm very quickly realizing the advantage I had back then.
Our life was very different.
We didn't have 4+ jobs between the two of us, we lived in a neighborhood with sidewalks where you could walk or jog, and we weren't parents. We also lived a much simpler life ... but that's another topic for another day.
Looking for new recipes that all of us will enjoy for dinner, preparing a well-balanced grocery list, calculating the points for all of the Trader Joe's food we eat (because hardly any of it is in the WW tracker), planning ahead for meals for my work days, and trying to figure out when I have the time to squeeze in some sort of activity in my busy day is exhausting. I've only been doing this for a short time and I'm already not doing so hot with it.
I know this is a weight loss journey but right now, it feels like it's going to take me a lifetime to lose this weight. I want to go to my Weight Watchers meeting and be excited to step on the scale, not avoid my meeting because I know I haven't lost anything. I want to feel good about the size of clothes I'm wearing and that I'm not huffing and puffing after a strenuous walk. I want to feel confident in the way I look and feel. I want to get healthy before we have another baby.
I want to be a success story.
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You can do it! I can only imagine how difficult juggling everything is for you. The hubs and I don't have time for the gym most days so we did Insanity together (just finished the program Sunday). We both got great results and didn't need any extra STUFF. I sound like a Beach Body Coach...I'm not, I promise! Don't be discouraged, you WILL be a success story. If you want a cheerleader, I've got my pom poms ready. Heck, I'll keep them on standby even if you dont. ;) Thank you for sharing with us!
*Hugs*
Even "success stories" still have days where we struggle, believe me. (And I use quotes because despite people calling me an inspiration I don't always see it myself, but that's another story :)). 15 months later and some days I still I have to remind myself this is a marathon, not a sprint.
I get it, though. You don't want to lose: you want to have already lost. It's a mind game and a frustrating one at that. And I can't even imagine what it's like for a wife and mom.
I can tell you this: avoiding the meeting is the worst thing you can do because soon one skipped meeting becomes two, becomes three, etc. My journey has been going on for 15 months and I have weighed in Every Single Week. Some weeks I stepped on knowing I had gained or knowing I stayed the same. But I still weighed in, because that way I could start the week fresh knowing exactly where I stood and it just gave me motivation to work harder so I would see a lose the following week.
But more than that, don't let the scale define you. Don't let it intimdate you. Don't even worry about the number. Focus on the non-scale victories and the exercise. Make this journey about being Healthy instead of about being Thin. Believe me, once your brain makes that switch it's incredibly liberating and the number no longer holds so much power over you :)
And now I'm done rambling, hahaha
You can do it. You really can. I am doing it now. I've been focusing on portions... and eating 5 small meals. It helps. Then cutting soda. But you can do it!! I have faith! New here, so did not know that you were losing weight, or wanting too... I am here for a listening ear if you need it! BTW I am 267. I have NEVER admitted that on the WWW! Whew
I can totally relate. I struggled (and I'm still in the process of losing) for years with weight and at 39 the body just seems to hold on to weight, even with dieting.
You know what the key was for me? Giving up sugar and (most) processed foods and embracing all the awesome whole foods that there is to eat.
Once I learned how our biochemistry works I stopped relating to food on an emotional level and I was like....oh...that's how it works. It was truly a lightbulb moment.
I learned that my grehlin and leptin hormones were completely out of whack so my brain wasn't getting the message. Sugar really screws that up. It also royally screws up our insulin and creates additional fat storage and then fills that.
Honestly, I can't believe what a difference my life became once I made the hard and somewhat painful decision to give it up. One week and I started changing completely. Now I'm in my fourth month and I can't believe I thought all that horrible processed food was even good.
I highly encourage you to atleast look into the biochemistry part. There's a you tube lecture on line called the Sugar: the bitter truth. It was the game changer for me. I had so much fear of losing weight only to regain it...but once I learned the biochemistry, I knew I could make my body work properly again.
I don't exercise to lose weight now. I exercise to help my biochemistry work properly. It changes the perspective.
I'm a new blogger and I'm sharing my stories and recipes. You can google Less Sugar Naturally to find me.
I wish you the best in this journey of yours. You can do it!
You are a success story, you're just not at the ending yet.
I'm right there with you!!!
You just need to find what works for you - if it's portion control and snacking, I feel you, because those are my issues as well. I won't give you unsolicited suggestions, but I will tell you to keep up the good work, don't get too down on yourself, and to know that you're not alone in your struggle for motivation and self control!!! Big hugs to you, friend!
I'm here cheering you on. This is a hard journey for most people but add work and kids and it feels impossible. WW has helped my aunt lose 70 pounds. WW works and I know it can work for you. I'll get a list of her "musts" as far as groceries go and forward it. You are right the weight didn't appear overnight, so it will take time to melt away. Good luck! I'm over here with my Pom poms!
I don't have any words of advice because I'm in the same position and share the same frustrations as you - and I don't even have kids! Its so easy to gain but so very difficult to lose. WW hasn't worked for me. I'm seriously considering a drastic change in my eating habits as the next step (but still healthy, can't starve myself). Good luck Tricia!
Cheering you on pretty lady! This kind of thing is never easy but you clearly have the motivation and the strength to make it happen! Good luck to you!
I SO know. I totally do. I think we're on the same journey here, definitely. I'm glad to have met you through PYHO, and I will applaud your efforts and stand beside you cheering you on! You'll do it! It just takes time. The journey will be worth it - I'm sure. At least that's what I continue telling myself!
hang in there sweet girl!!!
this is the part of the journey where calling it quits is definately an easy option, but keep your eyes on that prize!!!! it' all yours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am hear if you need ANYTHING at all :)
Lots of love to you,
Maggie
Oh girl, I love you! I can't wait for our mama date. Can we talk about this then? I want to encourage you! In the meantime, give yourself GRACE. Grace, grace, grace!
You can do it! I know you can. Stick with it!!!
This week marks one year of WW for my sil and she lost 70 pounds. I know you can do it, too!
So I have an unusual idea - have the baby NOW instead! I have three friends who were heavier than they wanted to be going into a second (or third) pregnancy, and - thanks to their morning sickness and the doctor's advice to gain 10-15 pounds (instead of the standard 25-35 pounds), both women left the hospital lighter than they were at the start of their pregnancy. It's unorthodox, but it worked for them!!! (Plus, you wouldn't have to lose the weight only to gain it during a pregnancy - you could lose it, simply put, once and for all.)
You WILL be a success story. Maybe not tomorrow or the next day, or even next week. But someday soon, you will be successful. And I will be cheering you on through every up and down, because I am in the same boat and I sooo know how you feel!
I know how hard it is...especially when you make bad food choice...just take it one day at a time...
I focus on 5 pounds at a time...because when I started, 40 pounds sounds impossible and like a goal I'd never meet...I now have 28 so I'm slowly inching my way...
5 pounds at a time...
I love the way you write. You can do it, Tricia. You WILL be a success story.
You should try the exercise DVDs "Walk Away the Pounds". They basically are walking miles in your home. You do four easy steps, and you feel wonderful when you complete it each time. I'm up to 3 miles this week. I do it about 5 times a week. It's a great program that lets you go at your own pace. And you can get the one DVD that has the four walking programs all in one. I've been doing it for 2 weeks, and I've lost 3 lbs. Yes, I wish it was more, but at least I'm seeing the scale go in the right direction! I'm also doing weight watchers as well. :) You can do it! I'm totally in the same boat you are!
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